Fine... henceforth i relinquish my double masters in law, i am done !!! Family and bosses do you read - I AM DONE- i will gladly burn all my degrees and wipe my arse with the ashes!!

 Ok sudden random urge to own and wear a kilt now!!!

Why does it always rain on me?

I dont know what this is, am i slowly self destructing, or are the forces of universe conniving to screw me? Answers are a luxury i dont have, everything around, seems bleak and screwed.
The way i look at it, you replace one pain with another, you replace one disaster with another, you keep screwing your mind till it finally wakes up and tells you to end it all.
Scary but true i am getting there

I want someone to walk upto me and tell me its not a crime to follow one's dream..

Overtly introspected.....

ITs a Phil Collins Afternoon and THIS gave me the goosebumps...

Seems like if all goes well, i might be heading to the mountains end of the month.  My cousin who too is a photographer is coming down to delhi for 2 weeks and the two of us are planning a wee trip to Dhanolti and beyond.
A tent, 2 canon EOS 7D's, one Canon EOS 5d Mk II, three tripods, two ipads, one macbook pro, one 2 terabyte hard drive, a lifetime supply of wai wai noodles and i think we will manage to get atleast 5 mins of  time lapse photography.

So Zulu tried and thankfully failed at his first Kamakazie mission last evening, as things stand was almost run over by a car, just managed to break his right paw. It was too close to call, Bahadur even though saved his life should be bitch slapped for being a wee bit careless while taking him for his evening stroll.
And now i am glad i didnt get his tail docked, coz had it not been for his tail ( which was used to swiftly pull him away from his sure peril) things would be a lot different this morning.

 I guess they were right about this atleast, i guess its true that once they operate on your spine, especially that close to the blob of plasma they call your brain, something gets tweeked for life.
 Post surgery even though life is more or less pain free ( an existence i had forgotten i could dwell in) but things just arent the same again. Something has been tweeked for good!!

I cant place a finger on it, i dont even think i can explain it, but its a strange place to be. For starters the insomnia is really really bad ( something i was warned by the doctors), maybe its the lack of sleep which is making me go mad ( didnt think there was any scope left for that), maybe its all those extra hours where my brain is slowly processing information it would rather not!!!
Arghhh its frustrating

Strangely its a '23' morning!!

I guess it's rather strange when even the slightest movement of your desk , your study and or the objects placed securely on your study, makes you want to jump up and run for the door, these days it's not just me but even people around me jump at the thought of the first movement, thinking it's a damn earthquake!!!
Crazy state of existence, where we live in fear all the time

So finally the new iPad arrives, glad won't have to carry the macbook everywhere, anything to take weight of the shoulders

So project time lapse is being conceptualized, given it a lot of thought, and starting beta testing last night.
Was on the terrace from midnight till 4 am  testing the various degrees to work under.

Few things that came to mind, a)- this cant be done in Delhi, there is way too much light pollution, unless i blow up the entire Northern grid, the project can never see the light of the day!! The orange hues even with 3 second exposures takes away everything one could ask from a picture.

b)- I need a new tripod, the existing one just cant take the combined weight of the 7D and the 24-70mm or the 12-22mm wide angel, there is an element of shake even though majorly minuscule, i under no circumstances want to compromise on sharpness.

Took about 100 shots last night, varying from 3 sec to 2 min exposures, caught a lot of cloud in motion, but the orange hues killed it.

Will be retrying the process again tonight, few different settings, and maybe a different white balance, ( i went K 4300 on the manual setting, will push it down even further tonight.

But eventually i know where i can get this done, either i head to Rajasthan and catch the stars from the flat plains or i head to the mountains and capture the sharpness one can only see at 10,000 ft.

Getting this will be soo much fun!!

Time lapse Photography

So despite the pills which the doctors prescribed i still cant sleep, but anyways spending this time learning about time lapse photography.
Pretty intense, and a sure shot way of testing one's patience, cant wait to lift the camera again.

"sheep".... 3 billion of em!!! damn all that wool!! and it aint even winter yet....

Greasy insomnia crawls all over me... DAMNIT

Missing Mussoorie...

Its an "Elderly Woman behind a counter in a small town" morning!!

From the ashes they rose, resurrected like a Phoenix

Time stood still, for what seemed like an eternity, as the ball soared slowly through the air, flying like a saucer on a mission it sailed effortlessly into the Garware Stand at the Wankhade, that moment, that very moment, an immovable force engulfed 1.21 billion people for all times to come, and before we knew it we were World Champions.

Magnanimous is too mild a word to describe those few moments on the 2nd of April 2011, 28 years of pain buried for good, 28 years of indignation pushed aside for a life time.

Never again would we have to depend solely on images of Jimmy Amarnath running like a grasshopper on weed after winning the 83 cup, we now had a whole new set of images to live with and live for, Dhoni hitting that ball into orbit to lift the cup, Bhajji and Yuvraj overtaken by emotions, Zak in arms with the team and Virat carrying Sachin on his shoulders around the ground on a well deserved Victory Lap, but the image that stands out for me, the image that gives me the chills, the image that will cross my mind when I am on my deathbed, will be of Yuvraj Singh on his knees, fists clenched, arms raised, a man possessed, a man who believed we could win this, a man who had just beaten the once mighty Aussies, take a bow !!!

And now that its all over, I can look back and find it extremely hard to hold back my tears, 19th February to 2nd April, what a journey, an experience of a life time, an experience unforgettable and incomparable.

Thank you Team India, thank you cricket, for giving a million others and me a reason to live for again!!!

And i am back, minus c4, titanium and silicon reinforced. Hells yea baby!!!