Transition is a bitch....

Just something i had worked on with Lana

http://www.fordfoundation.org/newsroom/events/517

Sad day for music,
REM broke up after 31 years of great music.
Legends...
http://www.rollingstone.com/music/news/r-e-m-break-up-after-three-decades-20110921?link=mostpopular1

There is more to this life than this, I am sure there is. I know one day, someday, this fear will go away, vanish into the very abyss it came from.

One day, i will no longer be a slave to vagaries of this society, that one day i shall stand arms eagle and breathe.

That one day, everything will be a bluer shade of bluer. The skies will be azure forever.

That day shall come,  and thats the hope i live with and for...

I do believe in signs.. and just 3 weeks after Lana took me under her wings to shoot documentaries, i found a 1968 Canon super 8 film camera at a garage giveaway.
I picked it up in a jiffy and spent the last 2 hours restoring it and lo behold it bloody works.
The funny bit, it still had batteries from the 60's
BEAT THAT...
Bloody brilliant

Not like the insomnia was any better, and now thanks to my fear of earthquakes, there goes whatever is left of it..
Last night (if i can even call it that) i slept at 7 am.
Freaking brilliant...

Its a Pearl Jam Midnight....

Its a terrible thing to live in fear....

Another nerve wracking earthquake experience last evening. Still shaken

The camera is just a tool...

I wonder where i am headed, i am asked time and again, what i am doing with my life and where i want to end up.
Answers to which i don't seem to have, yes i am a qualified lawyer, who doesn't want to practice law, and people find it hard to believe.
Yes i want to be a photographer and yes i have a lot to learn, which i am, and thankfully i do have some work coming in and i am sure if i do work hard this will work out too.
Till then.....Let me at least try!!!

Also on a more important note, its pertinent to point out that i am sucker for hell and torture, years after leaving the ex boss i once again heeded to her calls to help her with stuff till DEcember and i am regretting the move and how.
If only she knew how much i hate her...
Just this morning i was screamed at for no reason. Bloody brilliant, however i did write to her an hour back
Dear Ma'am
I request you to abstain from screaming and or raising your voice while conversing with me vide email and or otherwise henceforth. Your failure will result in consequences dire and or otherwise.
Warm Regards

I think that should shut her up for a while. 

Have another meeting with Lana this afternoon, we might be shooting this Wednesday, looking forward to it.

Glad to be working out again, this time it was really tough to pick my lazy arse and hit the treadmill. But after much procrastination i finally did it yesterday. Super glad about it.
Honestly i am not growing any younger, and i really need to keep myself in shape.

Zen and the art of my maintenance....

Finally the first good news this month. Tickets to Marseille have been booked. Flying out 4th Oct to shoot a wedding.
Super Excited, its been a while since i went to France. Looking forward to it.

And well, the hell continues, woke up to a  flooded delhi, DEAD FUNNY !!!

Am moving to Mars... a life sans psycho bosses, a life sans terrorism, a life sans earthquakes and a life where the indian cricket team doesn't lose every match they play!!!

Yes I have a problem, yes I am scared and yes I am extremely disturbed.

I cant help it, earthquakes are like my kryptonite. It seems to just suck the energy out of my soul, scare me to a level where darkness and silence make me tremble.

Last night was bad, after a long day after dealing with the blasts in Delhi, while I lay in bed watching a movie on my laptop, my kryptonite struck and how.

3 earthquakes in a year, is a bit much for me to handle.

I am not really sure what to do or how to react.

Its all too scary and unnerving.

Black September continues, bloody blasts at the Delhi High Court. Really sad and depressing, thankfully neither me nor anyone i know was injured and or killed.
From the face of it, it was the litigants and not the lawyers who were targeted. The explosives were placed near gate 5, where the litigants have to line up to ensure they are issued passes. Its rare to find lawyers there in the morning.

The only bright side, had a great shoot with Lana this morning.

Guess September came with quite a bang. And not a good one though.
Had my car vandalized, a friends mum finally lost her battle with cancer and my assistant's husband ended up in the hospital with a severe heart attack.
Its been all downhill so far.
My assessment its been a tough tough year.