There is anger, there is resounding grief, all thrown into boiling cauldron of feelings, overbearing and dizzy, it takes over my life.

Its been 5 years since he kicked the bucket, the man who brought me into this world, gave up his battle with life.

I have been trying to tackle it since yesterday, but at various levels it just makes me really angry albeit peppered with grief.

Every year i go through the same process, the healing, the anger, the pain, the grief,  every year i cant help but feel that he gave up too easy. There was so much more to look forward to, there was so much more that needed to be done, there was so much more ..Period!!