Its a weird state to be me these days, i am quite fucked in the head to be honest, i cant describe it, but the closest word i can find to describe my state of being is NUMB.
So i was home this weekend, put through a hoard of tests including but not limited to an MRI, which revealed my neck read C 4 and C5 were in a terrible state and need to be either removed or replaced.
Which entails a major surgery, something i have been avoiding for a long time, but i guess its inevitable now.